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Changin teh eljay [20 Dec 2004|01:40am]
I'm changing livejournal usernames... got kinda sick of this one. New journal is teh_lize. Add me if you want. Maybe I'll actually use that one! ?_?
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Yes, I am still among the living. [30 Mar 2004|10:57am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

First journal post in a while... what can I say? I just don't feel like a lot of things that go on in my life are really worth writing about... or maybe I'm just THAT lazy.

Lately my waking and sleeping hours have been completely out of whack. I believed for a little bit that maybe I had developed mild insomnia, but I'm pretty sure that's not the case. Last night I went to bed at about 9:00 PM and woke up normally, and I have to say it feels quite good. I seem to have this happen to me every so often, at least twice a year. There's just something about winter that makes me want to curl up and black out until it warms up... maybe I'm part bear or something.

But anyways, it is now Spring, and let me tell you, Maine has taken note. We've had some splendid weather these past few days, and I'm pretty sure it's going to stay that way. I love Spring. It used to be that autumn was my favorite season, but I've grown out of that. Spring comes, and all around you for the entire season are acts of growth and rebirth, it's like witnessing the creation right in front of your eyes. This is also a time of remembrance for me.. I don't know how it is for anyone else, but when Spring comes, I reminisce a lot.

I've been looking at some old journals of friends, and reading them is a true experience. Sometimes I forget a lot of stuff that's happened to me and my friends before. And reading stuff like that, it's like a reenactment of the past. It makes me feel really nostalgic, which is a good feeling. It also makes me really thankful for the people I've met on the internet. I may not talk to everyone as much as I used to, but please don't take that into account for anything. I love you guys to death, I always will. You know who you are.

Anyway, that's enough of my ranting. I've missed you, LJ. <3

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[14 Feb 2004|05:11pm]
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Happy Valentines Day.
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Um... wow. [09 Jan 2004|07:29pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

What can I really say about last night? Hm...

Well, I won't really go into great details about it, but seeing Mercury Switch at Drifters in New Hampshire was amazing to say the least. Didn't get much mosh in, but that was by choice. You see, after not seeing Merc. Switch in so long, I was alot more interested in being up front for singalong. (which I completely and utterly owned. Hands down.) Seeing those guys again was great. I love 'em to death... what's more, they're playing AGAIN at Drifters on the 4th of February... but not alone. Ooohh no. They're playing with guffing HASTE THE DAY. Frig yes. I simply cannot wait until then. Kids down in New Hampshire better enjoy their last days, oh yes. I may have spared their lives last night at Drifters, for the sake of being up front with the band. But the second time around will be different. Nashua, NH will be laid to waste by my mosh, and I will leave nothing in my wake. The WMHTYC -will- represent. (Expect giant green foam-rubber super hero costume hands.)

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Jingle bells and love spells. [26 Dec 2003|06:12pm]
Well, I had an awesome Christmas. Everyone else seems to have been so concerned with relationships that, apparently, they couldn't enjoy their's. I don't know, I just don't get it. Maybe it's because I'm lucky enough to have a great relationship with my (large) immediate family, but I can't remember ever getting depressed about not having a partner in life, and frankly I think people need to get over themselves when all they talk about is how much they "need" a girlfriend/boyfriend. I personally think it's a hopeless endeavor when you're my age, because most people are just too immature to hold on to a relationship, myself included. Human nature, I suppose... all I know is, Christmas is most definitely not about whether or not you're able to spend it with your significant other, and if that's all you can think about on the holiday, you need a good old-fashioned kick in the head. :>

So anyway, as I mentioned a couple posts back, I'm moving. Nothing big, just to the next town over. The work I've been doing has left me feeling like crap every day, and really I would rather not even THINK about ever moving from this house, but it's happening anyway. I can deal, I'm just a guy who hates to work. Aside from that, certain people thought it was pointless to start the moving process earlier in the month, when we actually HAD free time, so now we're suck with like, a week until we have to be out of here, with tons of work left to do. Sometimes I wish people would think ahead a little more. I mean, I believe we can finish the work in time, albeit it'll be a close call, but now I have to get up extra early every morning and load up Just a Flipping Second Craig's truck full of the absurd about of crap my family collected, not to mention finishing up the walls and junk we have to build to make the place livable for a family as large as mine. I swear, it seems like not a year goes by where we don't move to a different location, either house-wise or church-wise. I just wish we could stay in one place longer... but hey, what happens, happens. There's nothing I can do about it, so I guess all I can do is either shoot myself in the head, or shut my mouth and press on. At least I have my naked rat dogs to comfort me.

P.S. I have a Kim Possible mouse pad. I'm l33702 7|-|4|\| j00.
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[23 Dec 2003|01:27pm]
1337 !|\|74|2\/\/3|3 5|_||2|=!|\|6 @ Circuit City.

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Well... [24 Nov 2003|04:15am]
[ mood | awake ]

I have alot of work ahead of me in December.... I'm moving. Again.

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Triple dots of death. [31 Oct 2003|03:36pm]
Well, something pretty cool happened last night. Due to a large solar flare that happened(I believe) Wednesday, I got to step outside my father's house and view a spectacular light show most people would call the Northern lights. It was an awesome experience. I'm very happy I got to see it.

What? Expecting more? Pfft.

Oh yeah. Happy Halloween. I would have went on google search and found some sort of freaky crap zombie picture or something of the like to post on here... except I'm not lame! Don't worry, no Nightmare Before Christmas lyrics either. (That's not until Christmas. <3)
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Late entry, due to extremely lay-zeeness. [19 Oct 2003|12:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]

So Friday we went down to New Hampshire to see Spillkit and Human Flight Comity. Now, whenever I go to a show featuring a band I've never heard(Spillkit, among others), I always assume the worst. Hm, I'll give a short review, in order of who played first and last.

First up, Juniper Clause: This guy (yes, guy) was the most pathetic crybaby Dashboard wannabe I've ever seen in my entire life. I was -THIS- close to puking when he played. Ew ew and ew again.

Second, Spillkit: There's no way I can explain how good they are with normal words, so here I go... OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! THEY WERE TEH FRICKING R0X0RZ LIKE WHOOOOOOOOAAAAA D00D WHAT THE CRAP JUST HAPPENED TO ME AM I LIKE IN HEAVEN OR SOMETHING OOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... Yes, awesome x1,000

Third, Blueprint for Breakdown(or something like that): Eh. -sort of- sounded like mewithoutyou, but not nearly as good. Um, one of the guys was so gay that it was literally scary (and I'm not even close to homophobic. You should have seen him), and the rest of them were just messed up. Not fun.

Fourth, Human Flight Comity: I had heard them on CD before and thought they were pretty good, but they were REALLY good live. It was awesome and I'd definitely pay money to see them again. <3

Fifth, Bravo F*cking Bravo: Hahaha! Awesome band name, guys.... NOT. What morons. These guys sucked ALOT. I would've rather sat through an hour of Yellowcard than listen to these guys.... okay, maybe not. But they were bad.

So three out of five were really good. Not bad for a free show. Spillkit is going to rip a CD soon, and I can't wait for that. Hopefully we'll see them again soon, because uh...... they rock.

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Someone call Ripley... [27 Sep 2003|05:07pm]
[ mood | In love. ]

This isn't a long post, no sir. I know I don't update often, but that's because I rarely find anything in my life worth mentioning on the internet for all eyes to see. This may not be important to most, but it is to me. A select few will also agree with me on this statement:

Nodes of Ranvier... rocks. Plain and simple. The amount of "amp" I feel when I listen to them is rivaled by very few bands, and for it to send tingles through my blood stream is an amazing occurrence. I am not blown away by many bands. Download some of their songs...now. Or if you're rich, unlike me, go buy one of their albums. You will feel the mosh. Thanks for your time.

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Spam. [11 Sep 2003|02:12am]
Is it just me, or is n00b speak one of the greatest things EVER when you can actually speak English? I mean look at this:

"hi my name iz truhtlis_hyro wats^??/ i nvr updayt my jurnol ne more cuz i leikz to hav no life. so ok thx for heering me speek lol lol. plz sum1 leev coment cuz im so lonely and all mai frendz say i sux relly bad. kthx bai."

^( ! ) Hilarity Alert ( ! )^

Come on, that's awesome! Right? RIGHT!?!?! I don't know. I think it's funny how once you've finally started to clean up your typing after being an internet rat for 4 years, typing like you know you used to is hilarious. And I've started doing it all the time, mixing it with l337 sp33k! You know I'm funny.

Anyway, today was great for two reasons: #1, fell asleep at 3:00 PM and woke up at 6:30 PM, which is a really good feeling; and #2, WE HAVE FOUR BAGS OF CHIMICHANGAS FROM WAL-MART!!! Oh yes. Allow me to say, that the absolute sexellence that is the chimichanga is matched by few, if ANY other food item on this great planet. Just thought I'd share.

k thx buy 8-)
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Yar... [04 Sep 2003|06:51pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

You know what I'm going to do? Let me explain.


Step 1: Collect "large" sum of money. It must be anywhere from five to thirty dollars. What, that's not large? Okay, $1000.

Step 2: Stuff collected sum into burlap sack with big black dollar sign on it. Under the dollar sign, "EVIL" must be written out in bold print. Make sure bills are overflowing, as to show people it is a cartoony sack of cash.

Step 3: Gather everyone you know; family, friends, teachers, what have you, into a large field, stadium or parking lot. Do not let your purpose become apparent yet.

Step 4: Grab sack of money, show it to everyone. Say, "Hey, look at all this cash! Isn't it GREAT?" Warning: People will ask you for some.

Step 5: Take out small can of gasoline, diesel, napalm, or any other explosive material and pour, wipe, or place it into target sack. Warning: People will yell obscenities at you.

Step 6: Take out lighter, book of matches, butane torch, or any other item that can cause flame or spark. Activate the item, set flame to sack.

Step 7: Punt sack across the gathering area, angrily. Turn to the crowd, pointing towards the now blazing sack of evil and shout "SEE THAT!? IT DOESN'T MATTER!" Hopefully, you've just proved a point. Note that this can only happen in your dreams.

With that out of the way, let me say I had a really decent day yesterday. I need more days like that... hanging out with my family, you know? Mia is the greatest sister, if not the greatest chick ever. And Shawn doesn't know it, but I'm going to own him at the Mercury Switch show this month. He will be left wondering how someone's vocal cords can generate such a brutally insane sound. 0wn3d. But seriously, I thank God every day that I've gotten closer to my family. Otherwise I'd probably still be listening to Limp Bizkit and yelling obscenities at old folks. By the way, if they ever build a time machine, go back to 2000 and kick my former self in the balls. Yikes man. Also, for anyone out there who enjoys playing Magic: The Gathering, make an investment and register for Magic Online. Seriously folks, it r0x0rz.

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[17 Aug 2003|07:03pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

My days lately have been extremely boring an uneventful. It's been bugging the crap out of me. Every morning, I get up, and get handed a different job to do. Church work, yard work, basically anything else you could possibly think of. I mean, I don't mind work. But every day without a break from it sucks. I wouldn't mind working, it's just that I'm stuck around the house all the time. I love hanging out with my family, but sometimes I wish I could just get out more. Every show we've tried to go to lately I've either missed or we've not been able to go. Sometimes I feel like I'm not meant to have any fun. I don't know, maybe I'm complaining about nothing.

I've also been bothered by something else recently. It's my fault I feel this way about it, but it definitely could have been fixed a long time ago. I was too scared to try, though, because I didn't want to lose what I thought I might've lost. But when I think about it, it probably would have been okay anyway, it's just my own ignorance. It's nothing truly serious in the sense, but it's something that shouldn't have happened in the first place. I'm scared to try to fix it, but I have to try.

Anyway, Friday I went to this coffee shop in Oakland called The Oasis. It's run by someone we used to know from a church we went to a while ago. When we went on Saturday, I saw my friend Ryan, who I hadn't really seen in a long time. It was awkward at first, but once we got talking it was really cool. It was so awesome to see him again. I really needed it. He's going to be gone on a missions trip in Bulgaria for about two weeks, but hopefully I can see him again when he gets back. It's a weird thing, talking to an old friend you haven't seen in a while. He's definitely changed. Fellow hardcore kid, very cool. Well, let me rephrase that. He's kind of a hardcore/emo kid. Deadly combination, I'll tell you. So very, very fashionable. I met his girlfriend, too. She was cool. There's nothing I hate more than seeing people I know end up with crappy women. It was a very cool night, hope it happens a little more often.

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[13 Aug 2003|10:48pm]
You are a broadsword! you are double-edged and
sharp. As swords go you are a happy medium.
Long but not to long. Sharp but not enough to
make the blade weak. Strong but not overly

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[10 Aug 2003|01:33am]
Well, today was interesting. Got up, ate a chimichanga, and went to do the usual yard work. Finally 2:00 PM rolls around, and it was time for me to see Mercury Switch! Or so I thought. Instead, we flew into a ditch at 60 MPH, sat on the side of the road for two and a half hours, drove halfway to NH, and then decided we weren't going to make it, so we turned around. Then we find out the concert was going to go on for longer than we expected, and we actually probably would've made it! Oh well. I probably would have died on my way home, considering the person driving the car almost fell asleep at the wheel on our way back from Portland. And that's after basically sitting around for the whole day. Imagine how smooth his driving skillz would've been after driving another two hours to NH, staying at the show for a few hours, and then coming back sometime in the AM. My guess is, not so great. I don't care either way. I got pizza and Magic cards instead, so it's all good.

I'd also like to say, today was probably the closest I've ever been to dying. We were lucky we didn't hit the truck in front of us, and I wasn't wearing a seatbelt. What's more, the car wasn't even damaged! Let's just say, God gave us one heck of a good ditch to land in. I'm very thankful I didn't get hurt, although I'm pretty sure my heart stopped for a few seconds.
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[25 Jul 2003|02:51am]
HOLY CRAP! If my ears don't stop popping, I swear I'll go completely fricking INSANE.
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Sweetness. [24 Jul 2003|01:37am]
I'm tired, so let me sum up my day:

Lunchfast at Denny's (Breakfast for lunch, that's lunchfast.)

A box of Onslaught boosters.

New Sauconies.

Gundam Battle Assault 2.

Very sweet. Today was completely awesome. Except when we were at Denny's, all the waitresses sang the happy birthday song to me, which was absolutely the most embarrassing thing ever. >_<

I'm going to bed.
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My bones... [19 Jul 2003|03:36am]
I worked today for 9 and a half hours building a platform stage at my church. And let me tell you, I wasn't quite ready to work that hard. Last time I worked like that was in a time I wish not to speak of. And believe you me, it was nuts. And you know what I did when I came home? Went on the computer, of course. Yeah, drinking Dew, although very enjoyable, admittedly has it's drawbacks. You work your buttocks off all day, and just when you think you're ready for bed, the caffeine kicks in. Oh well, thems the breaks. I'm still not going to stop drinking it.

On a lighter, less painful note, it is now (technically) my sweet 16! Yes, time does seem to pass by at a frightening pace sometimes. As much as being another year older rocks, I can't help but be a little freaked out that I'll be 18 in two years. Once you hit 18, you're technically an adult. Some people may not realize it, but the difference between 16 and 18 is very big. You're viewed as an adult by most other adults, therefore you're expected to act like an adult. That's pressure. I know two years is still awhile, but not a very long while.

You know what else my birthday reminds me of? The Fall and Winter seasons. I don't know why. I know it's still summer, but it's pretty close to ending. Most people know this by now, but I've REALLY developed a disliking for cold weather. I frankly wouldn't give two craps anymore if we didn't have snow on Christmas. Maybe it's because Maine's winters always seem to last so much longer...I don't know. This summer's been really weird though. We had maybe a week of 90 degree weather, and then it was cloudy and between 70-60 degrees the rest of the time. Maybe it's an omen. Perhaps this winter won't be quite so harsh. (Yeah, right.)

I need some sleep.
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\\//\\// [15 Jul 2003|09:30pm]
[ mood | bored ]

So, earlier today, my little brother Elijah walks up to me and says,"Josh, what's a pimp?" and I'm like, "What'd you say?" and he repeats, "What's a pimp?" I didn't know what to say... he's 8. What do you tell an 8 year old when he asks you a question like that? The truth? Screw that. I asked him where he saw something about pimps, and he said it was on a show and he asked because the pimp was really funny. It was sort of amusing, but at the same time I was so angry. It sucks when a little kid finds out about something so incredibly wrong in a comical fashion. I just told him to talk to mom. Hopefully she won't think I was filling Elijah's head with garbage... ugh. Television ticks me off.

I've been playing Galaga all day. Sometimes I start playing a game I have saved, and suddenly I go insane and have to keep playing it for hours and hours. Like, earlier this afternoon, I was playing the Halo demo I have, and I shot a couple of my guys, and after you kill about three of them, the remaining members of your squad start shooting at you. So for about 2 hours I pretended to hunt my squad and tried to kill them all a different way every time. Finally my dog tripped the cord and turned off the game, at which point I began my endless Galaga game. <3 @ video games!!

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Ugh. [14 Jul 2003|09:24pm]
Oh. My. God. I HATE pro wrestling. The fricking morons who came up with this fake, perverted garbage have a special place reserved for them in Hell where the torture will be especially horrid.

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